December 27, 2013

Today I am thankful for:

My Mom.  She came from South Dakota to spend Christmas with me and even though I didn't have a Christmas Tree, we had a great time.  We were able to go to the Kennedy Center for three different performances - all choral and all amazing.  She was able to see my current office and see the neighborhood that I work in now.  We ate great food, spent Christmas day in our pajamas, and were able to relax and enjoy each other's company.  I am so thankful that she was able to spend the holiday with me and that even though I don't know when exactly we'll be able to see each other again, I know that we will.

A Year of Gratitude

With four days left of 2013 I can say with all honesty I'm happy to be done with this year.  It's been one of the most trying, complicated, emotional, exhausting years of my life and since I turned 30 this year, that's really saying something.  Don't get me wrong, this has been a year with lots of ups - finding an amazing man to share my life with, making new friends, connecting with family, bouncing back from a major surgery in 2012, and rediscovering that when life knocks me down, I am fully capable of standing back up.  However, 2013 (and let it be known now, 13 is my favorite number) kicked my ass and I've spent a lot of 2013 anxious, scared, depressed, and feeling like I've let everyone (especially myself) down.  I've left worry and fear consume me and it has taken a toll.  I haven't felt like this since my Dad passed away and I don't want to live this way any more.  

So, I one of my resolutions for 2014 is to take a moment every day and be grateful for what and who I have in my life.  It's a small step, but happiness comes from within and by reminding myself of what I already have, maybe I can find my way back to happy too.